Today would have been my cousin, Jen's 30th birthday. January will mark the 10 year anniversary of her death. You can read more about her here and here.
As I was getting ready this morning, I had this urge to check the date. I honestly couldn't recall what day of October it was or what the past few days' dates were. I checked my phone and sure enough, it's October 9th, Jen's birthday. As I realized this, and recalled that it would have been her 30th birthday, I let my mind wander to what we would probably be doing if she were here to celebrate it.
As I have mentioned before, Jen and I had just started to rekindle and strengthen our relationship not too long before she passed. If she were here today, I know in my heart that we would be the best of friends as that picture above suggests. We would have been bridesmaids in each other's weddings. Our husbands would have grown to be good friends and we would take weekend trips to Napa and Vegas and Tahoe together. Eventually we would be raising our babies together. She would be here to see her little sisters growing up and turning into amazing young women and graduating and getting married.
Not to discount all of the other people in my life that have passed, but her death has affected me the most long-term. I just wish she were here to do all of those things with. To laugh and talk about life and love with. I try not to dwell on it too much, but when she does cross my mind, those stolen moments hit me pretty hard. It does help me to cherish the relationships I do have, though, and I am thankful for that.
Happy 30th birthday, cuz. Hope you are having a rager to celebrate, wherever you are.
2 comments:
Thinking of you special girl and wishing Jen a very happy 30th birthday in Heaven x
Wishing her a happy birthday! I can relate, today I celebrate my best friend's birthday, whom passed away 16 years ago when we were just little kids. Hers too, has affected me long term. There isn't a day I don't think about her.
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